Wednesday, November 26, 2003 :::
www.thezonefitness.org
::: posted by gt at 8:20 PM
11/25/03 9:30 PM
Robbin's notes on Jeannie's comp.
Ballots.blogspot.com entries
Vark.blogspot.com entries
Blogging light this week. On vacation.
Open to offers of lunch, etc. anywhere between philly and indy on return trip.
Notes on Georgia elections:
Leader ousted following public perceptions of rigged elections.
Illustrated point that government is based on the consent of the governed.
The social function of rights is to protect the government from the people.
The government failed to respect the right (if any) to free and open elections,
So the people withdrew consent, and the government fell. The new government will be led by the people who think they probably would have won if the vote had been counted honestly.
Extra credit: Distinguish Georgia 2003 from Florida 2000. Was it the court that validated the process? Did having an electoral college in the loop help? Is it just that we are more used to elections? Article on some new castle county politician off to jail for not paying taxes on $4K in bribes from developer.
Other blurbs for vark:
Philly abandoned cars article
Mom's story about certificates of occupancy, and the Radison that sits empty because it violates building permit. Builders bankrupt. We drove past it on the way from mom's to where brother in law works. Article on circumcision - 39 states waste medicare funds on it, 11 don't, Delaware doesn't.
Personal junk:
Slept at moms. Dinner at dynasty buffet, tasty, $40. Did laundry. Missed josh, saw Zach and Hannah. Recent journal entries in tiffany catalog to be put online if I can get online.
Mom has computer phobia issues - not sure how to handle that. New owners at Forwood,
No protection from rent increases, thinking about moving, no tenants association, or rather there is one but lacks collective bargaining power. She's thinking of moving to an apartment.
11/26/03 7:30 AM
emotional state: toothache. Upset over zoning situation. trouble sleeping. Could be worse.
Will run out of medicine before I get home. Can't get online.
::: posted by gt at 8:17 PM
Monday, June 16, 2003 :::
Motion for Readmission
Robbin Stewart
Attorney Number 14174-53 ?
I was suspended as of May 18 2003 from the practice of law in Indiana.
I have paid a total of $200 and completed 12 hours of CLEs.
I move for readmission.
If it is possible, I wish to be readmitted retroactively to May 18.
Respectfully submitted,
Robbin Stewart
227 N Temple
Indianapolis In 46201
::: posted by gt at 2:57 PM
Monday, June 02, 2003 :::
http://www.marciaoddi.com/indianalawblog/
Indiana decisions - Construction of political advertising statute
The 7th Circuit Court of Appeals, in the case of Brian Majors et al. v. Marsha Bell, et al., decided 1/23/03, reversed the federal District Court's decision dismissing the case for lack of subject matter jurisdiction. Judge Posner wrote the opinion:
An Indiana statute, challenged in this suit as an infringement of free speech, requires that political advertising that “expressly advocat[es] the election or defeat of a clearly identified candidate” include “adequate notice of the identity of persons who paid for . . . the communication,” Ind. Code §§ 3-9-3-2.5(b)(1), (d), and makes violation a misdemeanor. * * * On its face, the Indiana statute applies to all persons who pay for political advertising that expressly advocates the election or defeat of a particular candidate. The defendants (various state and local election officials) argue to us as they did to the district judge that a proper interpretation of “persons” limits the term to candidates, their committees, and the committees’ agents. But no Indiana court has so interpreted the statute—nor did the district judge, who said only that “apparently” it was so limited. The website of the Indiana Election Commission, http://www.in.gov/sos/pdfs/Disclaim.pdf (May 2002), does not contain the limiting interpretation, but on the contrary says that the statute applies to “individuals, organizations, or committees who purchase advertisement time or space or circulate or publish material in support of or in opposition to a candidate, a political party, or a public question” and indeed to “all individuals and political organizations” who do any of these things (emphasis added).
Finding that the suit should not have been dismised on jurisdictional grounds, the court turned to its merits:
Although the parties prudently have briefed the merits, we think it would be premature for us to decide them. For they may depend on the meaning of the challenged statute, which only the Indiana courts can determine authoritatively. If the statute is as narrow as the defendants claim it is, it is a straightforward antifraud statute unlikely to present serious constitutional problems. For on their interpretation it merely forbids the candidate and his organization to create the impression that independent voices support him or oppose his opponent, when in fact the voices are those of the candidate himself, playing ventriloquist. * * * But if instead as the plaintiffs argue the statute reaches all persons, then it is a blanket prohibition of anonymous campaign-related speech (unless the speech is costless, for it is only the identity of the payor of political advertising that is required to be disclosed), and thus puts a crimp in political speech by exposing persons who want to express themselves for or against a particular candidate to the risk of retaliation. * * * Several courts have * * * upheld statutes materially identical to the Indiana statute broadly interpreted to reach “all persons.” * * *
The fact that the state in our case is advocating the narrow reading of its statute indicates its awareness that if broadly interpreted, * * * the statute may be unconstitutional. The statutory language supports the broad interpretation, but literal interpretations are often rejected when necessary to save a statute from being held unconstitutional.
We therefore certify to the Indiana Supreme Court, pursuant to 7th Cir. R. 52 and Ind. Code § 33-2-4-1, the following question, upon the answer to which the further proceedings in this appeal will depend:
Is the term “persons” in Ind. Code §§ 3-9-3-2.5(b)(1), (d) limited to candidates, authorized political committees or subcommittees of candidates, and the agents of such committees or subcommittees, or does it have a broader scope, and, if so, how much broader?
This certified question was argued before the Indiana Supreme Court on 5/29/03 (last Thursday). Thanks to the Indiana Court's Oral Arguments Online feature, you may watch the argument via Real Video. Click here to go to the Court's list of May 2003 webcasts, then scroll down to Brian Majors v. Marsha Abell.
Today's Indianapolis Star had comprehensive coverage of this issue in a story by the Star's political reporter, Mary Beth Schneider, titled "What's a person? Court must decide in political-ads suit: Definition will help determine disclosure rules for buying political ads." The story begins:
You may think you know what "a person" is. You may think everyone knows what "a person" is. But right now, Indiana's five Supreme Court justices are debating it, and the answer -- which eventually could come from the U.S. Supreme Court -- could have far-reaching consequences for elections in Indiana and across the nation.
The state's highest court got into the definition business at the request of the U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals in Chicago. Under Indiana law, a person who spends money on political advertising must disclose his or her identity. At issue is whether that applies to everybody, or just to candidates and political committees.
If the state Supreme Court decides that a person is, well, any person, the federal court may be poised to declare Indiana's entire law an unconstitutional restriction of free speech. If the state court decides that, at least in this statute, a person is a political candidate and the committee trying to elect him or her, Indiana's law would be gutted, said Julia Vaughn, policy director for the citizens lobbying group Common Cause/Indiana.
Posted by Marcia Oddi at 05:44 PM
May 31, 2003
::: posted by gt at 5:37 PM
Tuesday, February 18, 2003 :::
this part of the blog is suffering while i concetnrate on the others.
i have subblogs about food, time management, letters. if i were more on top of things i'd link to them here. not trying to hide them, just forgetting or too lazy to ad d the urls here now. tat's what the edit button is for.
::: posted by gt at 6:38 PM
Monday, February 03, 2003 :::
4 days lost to drugged stupor, started w tequila friday night. was too rainy to get to unicorn tonight. tomorrow, plasma,
try again to work on to do list list. messed around w my tv some, watched a show. cooked some garbonzos, didn't find my blended to make hummous. made sundry curry dishes. the big productive thing i did saturday was cleaned room - half the floor
is cleaned and swept, the other half under piles of stuff.
::: posted by gt at 11:50 PM
Wednesday, January 29, 2003 :::
I see I have not blogged here recently. Some shorter entires in the to-do list blog. So add to to do list, keep up on blogs.
Today, wednesday jan 30. Joell paid rent, i put $700 in the bank, bought a legal news paper, mailed a package to lindy.
Fairly social day. Cute mormon missionary came by, we had a nice chat about memetics ethics and religion. I'm leaving out the bit about the crackhead at 3 am. Chatted with gary and newt online, worked on my to do lists, made some wwdn entries, was awakened by a telemarketing recorded message that then put me on hold. Bastards. Maybe I should get more serious about the $500 lawsuits for failing to send do not call policy letters.
Nice article in legal newspaper about a pro bono case where an old woman was being hassled by a bill collector, got her bill wiped out when she countersued under fdcpa.
Dinner was cajun shrimp, squash onion avacado dish, mango.
Yesterday: Plasma, errands. Brian's birthday. I let him have newt for the evening as a present. Danny bought me a shot, and i got drunk on dollar beers. I asked danny to make a toast to brian, but i bet he didn't. Stayed up all night, went out for donuts in the morning on my bike.It's almost bedtime now.
::: posted by gt at 9:56 PM
Tuesday, January 21, 2003 :::
10. If you treat your beta-testers as if they're your most valuable resource, they will respond by becoming your most valuable resource. - eric raymond
::: posted by gt at 8:55 AM
I just had a flash of inspiration, and i thought i'd come jot down some notes about it before heading out for the day.
I'm reading the cathedral and the bazaar, which is about the open source movement and the development of linux.
On saturday I was at a libertarian party dinner and there was discussion of candidate recruitment.
My insight is that the candidate recruitment process could be made open source.
That would mean, instead of being limited to 4 guys in the proverbal smoke filled room, which is the way we did it a few years ago, that we would open up the process to a second tier of participants, call them the beta testers.
They wouldn't attend the meetings, but could participate via email and or phone calls.
Frequent releases of new candidate lists, updates on campaign planning, encouraging members to recruit nonmembers as candidates. This isn't as detailed and well thought out as I expected it would be, but at least I've jotted down the basics.
Other rambling additions: Party building through constituent services - right now I need a job, so does nick. In the tammany hall days, the democratic party built a base by taking care of each other, getting jobs for new immigrants, getting better jobs for active supporters, We haven't been doing that. How are we involving our members? what meaningful fufilling tasks are we allowing them to volunteer for? (note also the fred peterson issue) are we doing anything to support bob parker?
::: posted by gt at 8:54 AM
Saturday, January 18, 2003 :::
My day yesterday:
woke up. wanted to go downtown but it was 10 degrees, later fell to zero, so i stayed in. chatted with a pal, a retired english butler. we were joined by a young man, 14, north british. i said i was bored, so he showed me a chatroom. it was tacky and aolish, but i met one nice guy, 19, new zealand. we had some kinky net sex, something i havent done in years.
then i spent time at wil wheaton's site, pompously discussing religious politics, then i downloaded down and out in the magic kingdom and read the first part of that.that was my day in the post-scarcity economy, snowed in, no food, cold house, but visiting friends around the world and reading free books online.
::: posted by gt at 1:28 PM
Wednesday, January 15, 2003 :::
Wednesday. I got 3 1/2 hours sleep, and woke up with an anxiety attack. I can't get back to sleep because it is daylight.
During my anxiety attack I faced the reality of my hopeless condition, and made decisions I have been putting off.
That I will get back on wishard advantage,that i will apply for disability. I need to doublecheck when the libertarian dinner is.
may have missed it. (that's where my disabilty lawyer would be). I have an urgent need to make and prioritize the to do list.
I don't see why.. oh yes I do. If i try to do it today i'll be overcome with angst. during my anxiety attack i mentally composed the form letter to h & H, and related documents. i have the runs, may have eaten something bad. no food in house, well not much.
::: posted by gt at 10:56 AM
Sunday, January 12, 2003 :::
sunday night. strange weekend in that no one came over. spent it online of course. haven't had a bath yet day and pretty grungy. i mention this just in terms of the difficulty i have in doing the simplest things.i'm wearing yesterday's clothes that i slept in. i have a beard not as a fashion statement but because shaving is too complicated and razors are expensive. ah, there's nick's truck, good i'm gona go hang with nick for a bit.had more i wanted to say but it can wait . short version.. depression coming back a little just a twinge.
later edit: had a nice social visit next door. deb and daniel and victor and nick. watched a bit of a striesand/o'neal movie. i don't dislike her the way i used to, dumb movie but she had some nice lines. i'm finally getting around to wasting time on the soapbox whch is usually the first and only thing i do all day. decided to put off bath till tomorrow which means i'm unwashed, i need to be careful about that. bot mood has been good except for about 20 minutes before i went next door. i'd walk downstairs, realize my life is a catastrophe, feel bleak despair, order myself not to feel that way and it stopped, but came back with a few more twinges and i had to keep stopping it. that might be part of the problem - if i focus and pay close attention, my life really is shambles and there's every reason to despair, so i tend to involve myself in escape mechanisms like being online all the time. others, not currently using, include tv drugs or a good book. hat can i learn from this? the social time next door wasn't very productive exactly - we didn't -do- anything. daniel's been fired from a job at a movie theatre. deb works parking at conseco fieldhouse. drunken irish rob was sober for 10 days and has been hitting on everyone's girlfriend. etc. what i'm saying is there was some gossip, some information exchange, and that's part of what that social networking's about. now if those guys could figure out how to do something useful, like say a barnraising, when they get together, i'd like it better. but if getting together, hanging out, helps prevent despair and depression, that makes it kinda productive. i'm not used to looking at it that way.
::: posted by gt at 6:49 PM
Thursday, January 09, 2003 :::
instead of coffee i'm having water. wondering if this logging thing is just too tedious that no one, even me, could stand to read it. if, unlikley, anyone ever does, could you just drop me a line to say so? arbitraryaardvark[at]themail.com
works at least as of jan 2003. i've has the hotmail gt_bear[at]hotmail for several yeas but it's usually overwhelmed by spam. anyway, at one point during the bath,there were loud noises. was it thunder? was it military jets, like the choppers that wouldn't let me sleep two nights ago? somebody moving heavy equipment? i dunno. but right now the noise is windy, so it was likely something weather related.
::: posted by gt at 4:04 PM
test i need to reset the clock on this thing. it is 6:25, not 3:25. my bath lasted an hour and a half. clean socks, clean underwear, same ratty tshirt and sweatshirt. brought the paper in, i can read it tonight before bed. in the bath i read another couple chapters in "I should have died."
Chapter on the rise and fall of the junta, chapter on the life and death of his father. The bit on the junta had very detailed, matter of fact, descriptions of torture in the junta's prisons, interspersed with documents establshing american involvement. i got all wrapped up in, on the one hand hand reading about a war hero turned mad bomber being tortured for 111 days in 1974, to what i was going thru in 74, being beaten with a belt by my father, the same belt he was hitting my brother with that one day i heard him screaming. i have no memories of hearing my sisters getting it, although i know that happened routinely. thinking about in 77 when my father ruined my brother's wedding by the way he yelled at my sister, what i should have said and didn't.
so this is how my days go. now it's dark. i decided dinner would be the rest of the granola i got for xmas. had chips, no salsa, for lunch. i realize this isn't exactly a healthy diet. the granola has nuts and oats and sugar, as close as i'm gonna come to wellrounded today. i'm low on green veggies, maybe i'll go for a slice of lime at the club later or dumpster dive a little if i get downtown. it seems nice out so that should be doable.
eek i didn't realize the book only had two pages left, the rest is notes and appendices. i've now read the two pages and closed the book.that's the trouble with good books; they end. wwdn never ends, so far, it only goes down at times.
::: posted by gt at 3:25 PM
maybe tomorrow, friday, i'll write the to-do list. right now i'm feeling the effect of a cup of coffee, that rush of blodd coursing thru my veins just a little quicker, heart beating just alittle faster. bot mood good - i haven't felt the depression at all today. on the other hand i haven't pushed myself to do anything. stress is good when it motivates us to do the stuff we need to get done. i guess what i need to work on is learning to cope with the stress, rather than hiding from it. let in a little window of stress, enough to get me to make the list and cross at least one thing off the list each day, without letting the window all the way open and worry about all the things that worry me. and there it is.
the clenching of the stomach, the pain. that one little bit of trying to write about facing reality was enough to set off my body's defense mechanism. so now i'm taking deep breaths, consciously calming myself again.
i'm thinking, for some reason, about brooke. maybe tonight i'll write some letters to brooke, lindy, and mom.
even jeanie and laura although that's probably not realistic. writing them is one thing, sending them is far more complicated. i know i don't have stamps handy.
::: posted by gt at 1:51 PM
one of the things i had planned to do today was to go through my last couple weeks of box entries and save them to a blog. so far i've done one. ok, that's it - i'm gonna tear myself away from here and go take that bath. so it's taking me all day to do something most people accomplish before breakfast. i even did a little laundry yesterday, so i should be able to put on clean socks and underwear after my bath. again, the point is that these little things are so hard.
going beyond that to, for example, write that editorial about why judges should not get a raise, and why it is unethical to be spending tax money to lobby for it.
::: posted by gt at 1:42 PM
spent the morning googling the back story on a book i'm reading, "i should have died" by philip deane aka philip deane gigantes.
turns out after writing the book in 77 he moved to canada and was elected to the senate there. he probably died of cancer a few months ago. maybe not yet, didn't see any obit. it's 4 in the afternoon, and i haven't had my bath, read the paper, or even read further in the book. this is a book i found in a dumpster where they are remodeling the church down the street. the first part is about how was captive of the north koreans. googling, i found out that years later he bumped into his torturer at a cocktail party in london and they had a nice little chat.
later he was a diplomat on the losing side of a johnson-backed cia coup in greece. at the point i'm at in the book the cou is just going down. i should go take my bath - i need one right now, have the runs, maybe i still have the flu how can it last over 2 weeks? but it's hard to drag myself away from the computer. i have alot of open windows from the gigantes research. it's an information overload issue. which parts do i close, that funny story about cheese?
the part about how the other captives were shot and tortured? the korean war list where people are still talking about it? the review of his latest book, power and greed?
and do i follow up, send the guy a nice card saying how much i liked the book? so far i have emailed a couple of people who have expressed interest a couple of things. i'll probably let it drop. google plus ADD, info overload. like at disney where i wanted to look into that tonga situation.
certainly all this has very little to do with my getting on with my life, getting dressed, making lists, planning my life instead of just being buffeted by coincidences. will i or will i not succeed to night in getting out of the house to have a drink at my club? i've been trying and failing at that for two weeks now. such a simple goal, so hard to accomplish.
good thing i'm not trying to do anything more difficult, like get a job, go to the bank with my checks, order more checks, transfer some money from my last brokerage reserves, fix the texas tax situation, fix my car, get insurane, get a job. this isn't the to do list, this is the rant about how how i'm so disorganized i can't even make the list, much less implement it.about all i can do is hang out in this box and play with the other monkeys.
::: posted by gt at 1:27 PM
Wednesday, January 08, 2003 :::
the good news is i had the group interview thingy at the printing plant down the street. it seems like it would be a good job. basic bluecollar, lots of overtime, decent pay. i wrote a follow up thanks for the interview letter that'll i'll need to remember to send if i don't hear from them. bad news is drug test. i'm concerned about that. comic aspect: i'd been drinking so much water and coffee just in case there was a drug test right away, that i desperately needed to piss all thru the interview, and there were no bathrooms.
first sign it could be a hellhole to work at - what kind of a place doesn't have a bathroom?
anyway other bad news is 4 threatening letters from health department today.
they just won't ever leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it. it's so... i had one brief moment of the bleak depression today, while walking up the stairs just now. why must they keep trying to kill me?
why can't they leave me alone? i have some plans to talk to nick about this. maybe have him write a letter, ghost it for him. i had it mentally drafted. maybe i shouldn't have had that extra cup of coffee just now... i feel my heart racing. it's not a panic attack, but it's a .. it's not unlike a panic attack. milder. just... why o why can't they leave me alone!
i can't think about this stuff calmly. i try to sit and rationally make plans and i just get upset, odd ideas for retaliation and revenge.
if i'm carefully not getting high while studyig for a drug test, i'm going to have to face this alot. so i'll be using some of my other avoidance techniques, like a good book, a hot bath, wwdn.
other job notes: got info from annabelle re hewlett packard up at park 100. that'll make sense if i ever get my car fixed.
::: posted by gt at 12:31 PM
Tuesday, January 07, 2003 :::
grrr wwdn keeps going down.
::: posted by gt at 5:53 PM
i should make a note to copy the book title here at some point and google to see if there's more to the story.
title is "I should have died" by phillip deane.
btw today is lindy's birthday. i guess she just turned 41. i haven't mailed her her present, but she called a couple nights ago.
i want to wait until i do/don't get the job to call her. i'm thinking of her though. the one person who put up with me for 6 years - a record. i love her and miss her and feel so guilty i didn't treat her better. no desire to share her current life in paducah with her cats and boyfriend, but we both miss each other some, this issue of how to maintain relationships across time and distance is tricky.
::: posted by gt at 5:48 PM
today, started off reading a good book, read the newspaper for two hours in the bath, then a moment of the bleak depression,
put that aside by going online. a call. a job interview tomorrow! yay. it's literally one block from my house, at a print shop. underpaid but can't beat that commute. this is the one i couldn't go to last friday; i wasn't expecting they'd call so soon. this is the job i've had all my hopes pinned on, and it could still go wrong. i went and bought an alarm clock so i will be on time. $11 total. this is kind of a new start for me, i'm back where i was 20 years ago, trying to learn to get and hold shit jobs for basic survival.
plus, mechanic guy next door muttered something about how he might get around to looking at my car. i gave him my old car after it fell apart, and he's driving it ok now. i have the runs. just now had to get up for yet another bathroom break.
so i'm not going to make it downtown tonight either; i will stay here and try to get some rest so i'll be awake in the morning.
now about the book: it's by and about a greek journalist and diplomat, first about being captured and brainwashed in north korea, then about cia involvement in the greek junta. his perspective is that of a disillusioned democrat. haven't gotten to the end yet, but it seems like a lot of gloom and despair on the way. fairly well told. by now, 50 years after the events of the book, he's probably dead,
and the book's probably out of print. i found it in a dumpster at the church on the corner when i went out to get coffee, and went back and got it when i wanted a story for bed last night. one of those odd little coincidences - i could not have planned to read this guy's story; i literally stumbled across it, ok not quite literally stumbled. it seems to relate very directly to some of the discussion of iraq
going on on the boards. when i say the boards, i mostly mean wwdn, but there is a new board at a hidden location set up by a group pf my friends after their public board was attacked by neonazis and disbanded.
::: posted by gt at 5:32 PM
Monday, January 06, 2003 :::
obviously i've missed a bunch of entries. just a short one now before bed.
thanksful to have made it through another day. my days are empty and i just wait for them to be over.
wasted much of the day on the soapbox and in chat with the guys.
yesterday i spent getting high and sleeping. today, out of weed, feel ok about that. vaguely restless maybe.
actually feel better than the usual withdrawl period. yesterday mom called and lindy called and in each case i was kinda tired and didn't have a whole lot to say.
i had two big accomplishments today: i rode my bike to one of the mexican stores where coffee was on sale, bought 2 jars and the usual sundries, toritilas and tomatillas but the beans were too expensive. need to get to an aldi type place to stock up. $9.
$22 sat night for the pot. $10 misc groceries the other day including a pac of cigarettes for the ride to court.
this is a little too much in the way of trivia. $300 from joell, $250 from damon. need to get to the bank and think about organizing bills. most of that $ will have to go to cle's. i better make plans re cles and other pressing business. court is over for now, such a relief.
job possibilities:
printing place.
health clubs (both)
courier places, indy express and maybe others.
since i got back from disney been sick flu/congestion. how much of that is just from dope smoking?
almost no food in house. i buy enough for a few days. i just remembered i have orange drink so i will go have some of that before bed since it's too late for coffee. the decaf kind was more expensive so i put it back. this is just so mundane.
anyway the other thing i did today was i saved msveteran's story about sushi to the wil2 yahoogroup.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/wil2/files/sushi i think.
need to make a to do list. for example, is my license suspended? not that i'm driving, but it's one more detail.
::: posted by gt at 9:54 PM
Wednesday, December 25, 2002 :::
what i need to do today is get cracking on motion to compel discovery/opposition to motion to quash.
+ second request for discovery.
possibly other filings including demand for jury trial.
::: posted by gt at 12:11 PM
it's been awhile. i have some notes for a disney blog entry.
today, christmas: snow. i weatherstripped some doors and windows, need to fix hole in front window. mostly of course i am doing nothing, just hanging out online. i'm pondering what to use to fix hole, i am going to try cardboard and caulk since i can't find the duct tape.
some high points of my xmas: 1) i got my neighbor totoro for denise and denephew. i hand it to her and she says "I hate that!" but so far she's watched it 3 times and wants to keep watching it.
2) danny sed merry christmas. he's 14, british. cute although our interaction is entirely aboveboard.
3) an actual xmas card, from zorry.
4) some nice seasonal mojo at wwdn.
low points: i was really bummed last night because between the weather (ended up 8 inches of snow) and me getting over the flu
i didn't make it downtown to give dannon his christmas stocking of coal. i'd gotten the stocking, the coal, the bike to go downtown with, just couldn't quite pull it off. similarly, older sister and the two non-cute cousins got a can of beans with a note that says may be exchanged for 4 presents of choice.. those guys are hard to shop for.
::: posted by gt at 12:09 PM
Thursday, December 05, 2002 :::
view web page button isn't working.
::: posted by gt at 8:34 PM
today: didn't get stuff written down for court tomorrow. did pay electric bill so won't be turned off. did collect rent from joell. did download a bunch of my wwdn posts to my wwdn blog, and even figured out how to revise the template to add links. did go to the site and try to cut weeds, failed. note joells birthday monday. did tell j. something really really stupid: sed i love you. that was inappropriate and i'll have to backtrack.j and i are pals and we are having fun flirting but
i can't make it into something it isn't and won't be. didn't: really eat anything today. had a little soup this a.m. i guess.
::: posted by gt at 8:33 PM
Sunday, December 01, 2002 :::
so thats smokey joanna mike his sister chris josh nick joell danny asshole (jesse) drunk punk, i know i'm leaving out half.
this feels like kim's game.. why can't i remember who all was there? oh my lesbian buddy april who still owes joell money., and her morphine-using pal, who are staying with josh. rodger and carrie. roger and carrie are a couple who's ex's are engaged to each other and pregnant. joe and joanie. they swapped like science fiction writers used to do. that's 15. i'm sure there were tohers, plus people there when i wasn't.
::: posted by gt at 3:53 PM
last night was a slow night at the party. who was there? smoky and joanna, who wil give my number to her sister cricket. mike and his sister who used to go out with smurf. chris, fresh out of 3 months in jail. plead to an arson he didn't do to avoid attempted murder... some kind of ex girlfriend owed money for pot so he stole some stuff kinda story. josh is back at hollywood bar, cleaning himself up a lot, still on woodruff, west drive now tho. joell and big nick left for awhile and i left early. noise till 6 am.danny and "asshole" as usual, they live there. that drunk punk kid, 19, annoying. kidd's boyfriend.no one had weed. comedy central is the new trend over there. south park was better than ok. saw the man show and jimmy kimmel for the first time, it's what i expected. i'm not into crankyankers, a show about naughty muppets.
earlier that day i checked out the burned house across the street. nothing. one mysterious locked room might be worth another visit. it's just a pantry but could have unburned food.
friday night crew included joell's cousin, one of the twins, pocas, mj, oren, nate of course, duke i think, small crowd watching tv. tara got me high and victor told her the whole story about how beth's boyfriend faces the death penalty in georgia, why victor spent a week in jail over that, that the guy's awol from the gaurd when he kills the two people who were helping him, crank at the bottom of all this.might be an interesting article there somewhere.
::: posted by gt at 3:50 PM
gettin actual work done today. i remember this stuff. useta do it a lot. i'm not doing the most imporant things first.
i did make an attempt to go through the steps: to do list, daily task list, prioritize daily task list.
i did the dishes, which is my -almost ready to work- ritual, and prepared some routine motions in my 3 campaign finance cases. 90% anyway. "the first 90% of the tast takes 90% of the budgeted time, and the last 10% takes the other 90%"
anyway it's possible i'll show up in court on tuesday with actual paperwork this time.
gotta call my ex. - another thing put off so far this weekend. today's the first day i've done anything.
::: posted by gt at 3:30 PM
i was lying in bed thinking. it's 6 am sunday.
i grew up thinking that i would be living in a commune of some kind. not alone in a shack in the ghetto. on the other hand, we have these virtual commuities now, and that's something. it's cold in here. this s less profound than it seemed when i was motivated to get up and write it down. but i'm so lonely. and confused. and out of place. will i ever have some kind of community? back to bed.
::: posted by gt at 2:58 AM
Friday, November 29, 2002 :::
friday after thanksgiving. my big accomplshment so far today has been to change some light bulbs.
2 hours to walk to the store and back and change bulbs. i also picked up coffee garlic a can of juice padlock.$12-15. my lot on gray looks ok. same routine as yesterday - sleep in, read a bit, waste time online. mentally composing H & H stuff but must get to point of writing it down.
::: posted by gt at 4:37 PM
Thursday, November 28, 2002 :::
www.wilwheaton.net 's been down all day. maybe they didn't pay the hampster bill. so instead of my usual routine of wasting all day at wwdn, i'm googling for wesporn.
::: posted by gt at 2:49 PM
thanksgiving carolers came by and i got a hug.
i'm having lentils broccoli squash and french bread for thxgvg dinner/supper.breakfast was coffee.
::: posted by gt at 2:41 PM
woke up 11ish. felt good. enjoying reading a heinlein novel. had a superficial happythanksgiving call to my mom and sister.
by now, twoish, i'm back in the stressing over h & h mode, angry, talking to myself. and of course not getting any of it written down, just stewing over it, repeating the same thoughts over and over. angry at my dad and angry at H & H. maybe what triggered it is i'm reading the howpunished group on yahoo. i belong to 300 yahoogroups and at least 100 of them deal with
childhood physical abuse issues. it's an obsession. sometimes it helps to "talk" to each other about this stuff online, sometimes it just drags it all up again.
i don't know whether i was born broken, and led such a sheltered life that normal childhood discipline was the main source of stress, and i was unable to handle any kind of stress, so that just happened to be the trigger,
or whether whether (oops) my childhood was so abusive that even a normal person would have been driven crazy.
I think the reality is inbetween; that there is a strain of madness that runs in our family, so cousin steve killed himself,
cousin charlie got his head blown off in a drug deal, cousin doug is an alcoholic, although most of the rest of us are math teachers or scientists,
but that growing up as dad's scapegoat was alot of pressure at least by today's standards; not every 16 year old gets hit with a belt, although many do.
i'm at it again talking to myself about an incident i remember from local crime watch meeting where the cop bragged about how he took a gun away from a girl and took her home to get her ass beat.
the connections between the governmental violence and the domestic violence are pervasive. i'm not just mad at my dad, i'm mad at lyndon johnson and the system that lets thugs like him rule over american citizens. but then again i've been reading heinlein :) suddenly i'm feeling alittle better. weighing options: get high, have more coffee, open another window?
i have to hit send very shortly or i'll time out. so [odd, i wrote "click" in brackets <>
and that text didn't show up on the blog]
::: posted by gt at 11:10 AM
Wednesday, November 27, 2002 :::
2:45 am thxgiving. heading off to read and crash. feeling better.
::: posted by gt at 11:43 PM
got home around 4. oh right, that was after i flunked the drug test and didn't get the job. wasted time at wwdn til 11 or so, then wasted time at gay.com til 2 (so far) gonna read some more heinlein then crash. i'm feeling better now. i was way upset around midnight, crying yelling talking to myself. the usual, the h&h thing. partly upset about thinking about it all the time nd not being able to get it written down. it was real good to to talk to nick about it today. he's been thru some of this stuff too.
it was a moderately productive day all in all. just kinda overwhelmed with emotional stuff. i wanna call mom and lindy tonight. maybe brooke, probly not.
::: posted by gt at 10:49 PM
well (yikes why does loading a gay.com chat room take 15 minutes) i started to come on here to be able to vent, but got caught up in rebooting. my stomach still hurts, but i'm no longer talking to myself and enraged/depressed/upset.when i lived with my parents my stomach hurt like that on a regular basis i thought it was just part of life.
today went ok. nick and i got a lot cut, the one one desmond that is why i wrecked my car last april 15th.
it's past midnight and i got no work-writing done, having a hard time getting started on that. oops this is sure to have timed out.
::: posted by gt at 10:30 PM
Tuesday, November 26, 2002 :::
Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2002 2:38 pm Post subject: Re: template
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I WANT: monkey lovin'
I HAVE: no bananas today
Je REGRET rein. or is it rien? i don't like rain much either.
I WISH:
I MISS: the food coop
I FEAR: the zoning thugs - marion county health department
I HEAR: you, mang
I SEARCH: google. daily.
LAST TIME YOU...
SMILED?: hippie walks right up to me and asks me for a smile.
he got it too. the nerve of that guy.
CRIED: 2 weeks ago. not about wrecking the car, not about being overcharged on the tow, but the sense of help/hopelessness.
BOUGHT SOMETHING: starter for 77 olds.
GOT HAMMERED? sunday a week ago.
KISSED SOMEONE?: did i mention sunday a week ago? josh was there. we didn't actually kiss this time cuz his boyfriend was there but there was meaningful eye contact.
HAD A DREAM?: that all people, i say all people, can walk the streets of ...
LAST THING YOU READ: newspaper. blogs. about to reread podykane of mars (sp?)
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW ON THE BIG SCREEN: star wars the prequel sequel
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: temp agency, junkyard
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: k d lang
LAST THING YOU ATE: lentils + coffee = breakfast
DO YOU...
SMOKE? see below
DO DRUGS?: see above
HAVE A CRUSH?: on jerbear's avatar
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: no. position available. write for disclaimers.
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK?: george bush.
HAVE YOU EVER LOVED SOMEONE? yes.
STILL LOVE HIM OR HER?: yes, who she was.
HAVE YOU ANY GAY BISEXUAL OR LESBIAN FRIENDS?: a few. not having lesbians friends these days is rough. they seem to be the only ones to see the world clearly in a way that makes sense.
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES?: no and yes.
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER?: yes, if not to me.
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL: i guess so. prefer to muck it up with juniper berries and quinine.
BELIEVE IN ALLAH: that's a secret.
HAVE ANY SECRETS?: No.
HAVE ANY PETS?: Teddy bears
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO UNIVERSITY?: Haven't touched a drop since 1998.
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS: Nun.
PIERCINGS?: No.
HAVE ANY TATTOOS?: No.
HAVE A BEST FRIEND I think so.
CARE ABOUT LOOKS?: Mine, no. Yours, maybe.
TRUST OTHERS EASILY: Gullible isn't listed at dictionary.com
LIKE SARCASM: If i told you, would you believe me?
TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN: i'd rather not in november
SING IN THE SHOWER: no shower, no song.
HAVE ANY SCARS: nose, lip, scalp. shovel, hunting accident, fell off my hoppityhop.
-30-
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nolan chart: 100/100 www.lp.org/quiz kinsey# pi earth first mars next
::: posted by gt at 12:47 PM
Friday, November 22, 2002 :::
how court went:
mixed bag.
201 eastern was scheduled for today. i wasn't at all prepared. granted continuance till 1/3 but said no further continuances
01/02/03 9 am and 1/3/03 9 am.
also have appearances on 12/03 and 12/06.
410 beville was dismissed.
body attachment recalled - i overslept yesterday and missed court.
did not have anything ready to file re 30 n hamilton
need to prepare counterclaim re 30 n hamilton.
need to do extensive discovery request for stipulations etc.
most interesting thing was he took under advisement request for jury trial on issue of damages.
so i could prepare a memo on right to jury trial under indiana const.
::: posted by gt at 10:06 AM
Thursday, November 21, 2002 :::
today: car stolen by last chance. the plymouth.
i was writing up the cpf bit for the box book. went downstairs, got out of the bath, what's that doing there. realized the microwave was gone. front door wide open. bike gone. dnky watch with broken band gone. some tools gone. h was thourogh. "some black guy" is all the description we got. no bike to get to court tomorrow if i have court tomorrow. i'm angry. partly because it doesn't even occur to me to call the cops. light bulb went out so i'm typing this in the dark.
should probably write nastygram re trespassing during theft of car.. did they have a warrant?
::: posted by gt at 10:54 PM
Tuesday, November 12, 2002 :::
court went fine. i showed up at the wrong time, after having joell get me up at 7:30.
a handwritten motion for a continuance was granted. dec 6. had diner homefries a chocolate coke and espresso at fountain square. looked into thrift shop. over railroad track through woods home. off to 40 tacoma.
::: posted by gt at 1:07 PM
Monday, November 11, 2002 :::
yesterday: tv and car self-destructed.
today: served with three more lawsuits.
had an anxiety attack this morning, continued from last night, based on worrying about trying to deal with the lawsuits without a car. haven't had one of those in along time. tried to deal with it by going back to bed, so got nothing done today.
::: posted by gt at 1:48 PM
www.cruftbox.com killer blog. it's 4:22 am. no sleep. i'd go get stoned, but i already did. 2 hours ago and ?? hour ago?
little dried up leaves all over the plant, not a great sign, i watered some more. i don't feel as bad as i did. roommates are being noisy.
::: posted by gt at 1:22 AM
Sunday, November 10, 2002 :::
part of what irks me is the unicorn didn't go all that well. boy i went to see was there and danced but didn't say hi or anything to me, even though the place was empty. neither did jax or aquarium.
but i got to meet _lucas__ (it'll come to me?- it came to me later when i saw a star wars attack of the clowns reference to george lookass) the emo guy from kareoke tuesday.
he suggests jimmy eat world. not cute, but nice. hope i'll see him again.
::: posted by gt at 11:46 PM
a few minutes ago i was crying briefly over loss of car and towing fee and thinking about court.
but it coulda been much worse.. the wheel could have come off while i was on the highway. i should have done a pretrip inspection and seen lug nuts were coming loose, if that's what it was. frame broke, so car is probably totalled. i'll see if jesse wants it. stomach hurts. stress and bad waffle house coffee. it's 2:40 but feels like 4:20..brb.
::: posted by gt at 11:43 PM
long time no entry. much to catch up on. i started a new blog, depressionjournal.blogspot.com
major events since last post: went to chicago for oral argument in majors v abell. election. very little work accomplished last 3 weeks other than chicago. tonight, unicorn, dumpster diving, wheel fell off car. $95 towing fee rip off.
will need to get cash to pay for work on other car. will need to walk to court tuesday. etc.
::: posted by gt at 11:40 PM
Sunday, October 13, 2002 :::
who all was here tonight? joanna nate joell's cousin joell jeff canary marina annabelle someone i didn't know jay patrick -
not bad for no party. we sat around and talked, which is unusual. nothing deep. waste of time but i was feeling lonely and depressed so i went over for awhile. joell paid another $100 of the rent.
now it's 4:35 am. it was 1:42 before.i'm lonely and depressed again. -this- far from crying. watching some not bad movie about a class of 87 high school reuinion.
::: posted by gt at 1:42 AM
Sunday, September 01, 2002 :::
test
note to self look this one up.
Anderson v. Hale, 2001 U.S. Dist. 6127 (N.D. Ill. 2001)
NLRB v. Midland Daily News, 151 F.3d 472 (6th Cir. 1998)
Facts: The plaintiff served subpoenas on AOL
::: posted by gt at 11:48 AM
test - blogger recovered my last post; all it said was "test".
just stopping in to note that i had a houseguest this weekend. zorry, who was the boy from california in
"the moose story". it was nice for us both to have company. he has moved to his dad's in milwaukee where he has a job but
no social life. we drank, smoked, long pauses with little conversation. saw the bourne identify, a routine spy caper flick made
non routine by starring matt damon. he liked hollywood bar und filmverks. i had little to say, and i think i was kinda rude in not being very huggy-touchy-feely, since it's not a sex thing between us anymore -he's put on alot of weight and has a different body type than when he was 17. he's still somebody i care about and am close to, in our own male-bonding-much-left-unsaid kinda way.
i felt like i should let him know it's not him; i'm the same way around my family etc, just have a hard time expressing myself in spoken words instead of online. he seemed a lot more comfortable than last time he was here.
so it was a happy time for me, just to not be alone for a change.
::: posted by gt at 10:43 AM
Wednesday, August 28, 2002 :::
mailbox full of h 7 h envelopes. various sizes.
they are taking apart 201.
bought a bike.
put motion in mail. $12 postage fedex. bought stamps.
::: posted by gt at 7:54 PM
Tuesday, August 27, 2002 :::
depression journal monday
10 am. threatening call from health department. wiped me out emotionally. anger, hopelessness. went back to bed, used some drugs,
gave up my plans for the day.
my big accomplishment was going to the local bodega for a rat trap, but they didn't have any so i got coffee and club soda. spent $8.
did first draft of motion to admit brief, and letter to hamilton county.
6:30 pm. kids smashed all the windows in my 84 plymouth. they got away.
::: posted by gt at 6:26 AM
Monday, August 19, 2002 :::
was composing a post on wwdn and decided to follow my own advice - tonight's meal is spinach in brown gravy.
::: posted by gt at 6:20 PM
Wednesday, July 31, 2002 :::
2ish, so the day's half over.
I called ellen fujawa and she called me back and we had a nice chat and made progress.
I made three looking for work calls, nothing.
I revamped the files section in /joellsparty and went over some of the mzw stuff so i'd be more ready to do a to-do list of what is the next step.
I wasted some time writing to www.jewishcheerleaders.com.
I will take a bath, have a 3rd cup of coffee, figure out how to blow the rest of the day, maybe outline a couple temporary injunction motions. and or go thru the bills finally.
NEED TO: find out when the hearing is about 201 eastern, draft a lawsuit.
6 pm edit:
sent email to fujawa. 1.0 hours. made a call re a job, will go tomorrow to register with yet another agency. that was the plan after all.
oh, and this time i was able to get into uncle willie's soapbox, so i have a new playground.
4-5 it was unbearbaly hot so i tried a siesta, got no sleep but a little rest.
::: posted by gt at 12:06 PM
called ellen fujowa left that message about having a hard time getting in touch with you. had the bicarb and the coffee.
i'm sure if there were pot in the house i'd use it. so far today i've done two of the things that would have been on my list if i'd made a list, so there's some potential for having a productive day.
::: posted by gt at 6:38 AM
stuff i could do today but won't, let's put it that way, might be less threatening than calling it stuff i must really must get done today.
go through bills.
call ellen fujowa 233 4386 .. damn! i can feel my stomach knotting up and i don't think it's hunger, i think the idea of facing these chores is bringing on the anxiety.
ick. ick. ick.
so even trying to rationally plan my day triggers defense mechanisms, so the only thing that makes me feel safe and ok is to do nothing and just vegetate like i did all week. at least recognizing that pattern is a good thing. i think about the year i was 21 and was doing this without knowing it, same as when i was a kid, as long as i had my nose in a book life wasn't so bad.
i guess i'll go read the paper and see if that relaxes me.
current dillemna is whether to have coffee with the paper .. i was drinking coffee all day long yesterday... think for now i'll try some bicarbonate of soda instead.
::: posted by gt at 6:24 AM
wednesday. woke up at 5 am went to sleep at 2. so maybe i'm not sleeping enough, not eating much, aren't those signs my depression is returning?
so far today i've added cases back in to the joellsparty page. maybe i'll get stuff done today - it's been over a week since i did any useful work. i should make a to do list and a dtl, i don't feel that motivated yet. wonder what the resistance is to an organizational task like that? i ended up not going out to kareoke last night, which means i never left the house except to take out some trash.
that means i probably never got dressed. today is wednesday but maybe i should treat it like its a monday, like it's time to wake up and get up and get motivated. i'm pretty sure i couldn't get back to sleep if i tried. of course, maybe i would sleep better if
i did something physical. spent yesterday wanting to get high. don't feel that way right now.
had one brief episode of the acute depression last week, it only lasted, no more than 20 minutes but it was my excuse to do nothing that day. i'm feeling alot of anxiety over the whole health department situation. they are about to tear down 201 eastern, and i had another threatening call from tom sitler yesterday.
::: posted by gt at 6:19 AM
Tuesday, July 30, 2002 :::
forgive me father, it's been two months, almost, since my last blog.
i've spent the past week at
http://www.wilwheaton.com
which is a very cool blog, but it never made me think of coming here to work on my own.
but then i followed a couple of links.. there's a fair amount of porn two degrees of separation from uncle willie's..
and wound up at a blog at http://www.jewishcheerleaders.com
guy is an ok writer and has a story to tell about his career in porn.
ugly as hell but that's not the point.
exactly what it was that made me come here, what i might have wanted to say, i don't remember.
but it's getting to be time to stop reading and start writing.
today is tuesday.
last night i was at the unicorn and fondled jackie a little. had the fourth gin and tonic which i'm not allowed to so today i was not hung over but woke up a little queasy. felt that way yesterday too but hadn't had a drink.
sunday i had a dozen nude guys over who wanted to have sex with me and all i could think about was wishing i could come back upstairs and read some more will or see if i had mail.
glad i found this site as there's nothing much new on any of the boards i'm following.
i'll stop here to keep this short enough that it might not get eaten.
::: posted by gt at 12:01 PM
Friday, June 07, 2002 :::
stupid blogger just ate my post. again! grrr! makes it pointless to contineu here????
::: posted by gt at 9:18 PM
test
::: posted by gt at 8:56 PM
test. stupid blogger just ate my post.
::: posted by gt at 8:56 PM
Tuesday, May 21, 2002 :::
blog 5/20/02
3:22 PM
phone $ 150
electric $200
water 155
transcript fee . $66
note, copied here because blogger isn’t working.
much later... ok i haven't been keeping up with the blog. typical. maybe later i'll fill in some of the spaces.
this would be a good day to blog. it was almost productive, interesting, exciting. almost.
i got a few things done...
sent in the payments on the phone water and electric bills that had shutoff notices. to do thaT, I HAD TO FIND THE BILLS, STAMPS,
rats, and checkbook. i found the checkbook by rummaging around on my bedroom carpet looking for any stay morsels of pot.
i ended up smoking two of the seedlings, using a candle and a broken lighter.
mailed some stuff to lawyers, stuff that was spozed to be mailed friday (3 days ago).
rode my bike downtown to mail them - if i'd done it sooner coulda just put it in the box.
stopped and paid for and got the transcript of the hearing in majors v abell.
i washed dishes - so that's done for May- and took out some trash.
the lawn mower store was closed when i went.
i got a kiss from what's her name who lived here for awhile. carrie.
she has a cute but drunk new girlfriend.
we would have bought pot if it were handy,
the last ally mcbeale episode was dull, then i went to kareoke at oz.
i went up to some guy - alex - told him he was the cutest guy there. well he was.
dannon, the dj, came up and said hi. i mumbled a minimal response.
you wouldn't know i'm desperately hot for the guy.
i mean, just look at that butt. http://www.gurlpages.com/gtbear/crews.html
been way too long since i've spanked him.
daniel and deborah sang, and we hung out a little.
that's about it for today.
well i left out the part where i played chess on yahoo and surfed porn for a few hours,
found a few pages of spank pics. ok
::: posted by gt at 12:28 AM
Thursday, May 02, 2002 :::
went to swill coffee and got ambushed, they held me down and made me smoke pot.
this is interesting.. first it lost this post, and then it recovered it for me. nice blogger.
::: posted by gt at 4:51 PM
test. just lost a 3 line post basicly saying i'd gotten nothing done yet today, especially if posting to usenet doesn't count.
annoying popsickle truck going by. all for now - off to swill coffee.
::: posted by gt at 3:10 PM
Wednesday, May 01, 2002 :::
rats! just lost a long entry about seeing aaron carter on tv, a few notes on sex and drugs. stupid blogger.
::: posted by gt at 9:22 PM
reposting after first try failed.
later thAT SAME DAY: (oops) i haven't gotten alot done today. haven't opened the file i'm working on, a brief to the seventh circuit
in one of my anonymous political speech cases.
instead, after reading the bad novel i mentioned below, i looked for online and found "the tale of genji", possibly the world's oldest novel, depending on what functional definition one uses of novel. but i couldn't really get into it.14th century japanese court literature. mybe i'll give it another try another time. maybe not.
then i looked for and found dr graper's grapenotes at http://www.grapenotes.com , a legendary collection of early online gonzo journalism, that i hadn't read for 20 years. yes, i was online 20 years ago, then off for 10 years, then back on.
got a phone call re ongoing negotiations for selling a vacant lot for $600. took the car parts to the shop for a valve job. looked to see how my garden is doing.some people came over and we smoked dope - i'd been doing pretty well all morning being sober, since i'm out and trying to cut back. yesterday i'd searched the house meticulously for an hour and finally found a roach to get a good buzz off of. recently read michener's "the drifters" and evely waugh's "decline and fall", one of those british boarding school farces.
i'm using reading as a crutch these days; when i have my nose in a book i don't notice being depressed. any day now i will break down and spend $5 to get a library card so i can check out a collection of vernor vinge stories. ordinarily i do not spend money other than car repairs and bills. roomate says he has a job and should have some rent for me soon. he moved in in january, hasn't paid rent yet, this is may. all for now.
::: posted by gt at 5:31 PM
test. isn't working.
::: posted by gt at 5:30 PM
so far it seems to be working; i can log in and out and the info is still here. i don't completely trust it.
::: posted by gt at 1:00 PM
silly posts are in reverse chronological order, makes it a bit difficult to begin at the begining. there's no built-in spell check here, so i am noticing lots of typos. all for now. i'll have to decide whether to edit out these "all for now"s or keep them as a catchphrase thingy.
::: posted by gt at 12:58 PM
seemed to go ok. there's a tension here between being thorough but dull, or creating great literature. there are 10,000 other bloggers out there. i suppose i'm my own audience - i'm 40 now, at 80 it might be nice to have this to read, if i can successfully back up my data. the intent is to preserve something for posterity. i'm convinced that the golden age is in front of us, space travel will allow population growth, billions of new marks er readers. maybe even intellegence enhancement to the point where people will have time to read more, and keep up with the information explosion. that's if i end up expressing anything of value, to the point where anybody would want to read this, maybe even encourage others to read it. that is, can i create memes with survival value.
meanwhile, it's beltane, midafternoon, and my mechanic is on his way over so we can take my cylinders to be bored out. or something, pertaining to the 84 mercury and its parts strung about my garage. all for now.
::: posted by gt at 12:56 PM
once upon a time... hi. gummi the bear here. might start keeping an online diary here. diary.. not quite right. journal maybe.
"memoirs." It's just that sometimes recently i've had these killer exciting event-filled days, but what with having no short term memory, if fades fast, and it's sad not having anyone to share my adventures with. i read a lot, and think, man i could write better than that. (this morning i read a really bad novel, john o'hara's "the instrument" @1967). i'd been keeping a sporadic journal at
communities.msn.com/joelsparty but bill gates ate it, it's gone. this should be a bit more stable.
all for now, this is just a test to see if the entries load ok.
::: posted by gt at 12:46 PM
